Coming Out From
the Dark Cloud
Descending
from the grave above me
The
place that haunted my existence
The
cloud that loomed and lowered my ability to think and perceive.
The
gray areas would not dissipate
They
carried themselves in a conduit wrapped around me.
I
would not let the shutters open for fear of condemnation and ridicule. They stayed shut and kept me in.
Now
I sit in a vulnerable downward draft easing off of the pain that sustains the
cloud.
Hovering
up and down on the waves of the darkness.
Whether I move or stand still, it is always there. It rocks and consoles me through the day into
a place where I can make out my existence.
My
pain is spelled out for me in the waves I am carried on, and the shores of hope
seem so distant.
I
find myself meandering around, bobbing up and down as if an ocean tide were
carrying me.
This
becomes my state as life goes on and I find myself unable to stand my feet on
the ground.
I
am carried by pain.
The
darkness chokes and overwhelms periodically to the point where I feel it is all
I am breathing. The dark smoke and rays
shoot through me and hamper my chances at a normal life.
Someday
I will be given the opportunity for new strength.
Until
then, I know that my abilities to grasp life in the manner everyone else does
will be long in coming. I expect to
spend my time with my feet carrying my life across humble ground, realizing I
took an untainted life for granted.
Or
maybe, it was the way of the universe to show me the strength that would be
required for those who have gone my road.
My
presence will appear to others slowed and disdained and part of the wreckage of
society.
I
will hobble and groan because that is the only way I can move until my feet
find hope and love again, and the cloud is consumed by a healthy life.
Copyrighted
© By Lisa Wick, 2013
Deep. Profound. Eloquent.
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You're an Incredible writer Lisa!
Thank you for sharing your soul ~
Very powerful Lisa, You write from your heart.
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